Day 3 – Could use some help

So today I am still recovering from my ‘inspired workout’.  I really don’t feel well.  I mean, the pain has made me almost feel sick.  That may sound wuss like – but it’s terrible.  I’ll make it through this.  Maybe I can work out tomorrow – but I don’t see it happening today.

Eating has been good.  Saturday was AWESOME…. Sunday was good.  Monday is already taxing me a lot.  Not really found of being taxed while I am at home – then again – not really sure being near vending machines is a good idea.

Last night we ordered up some Chinese and I didn’t want it… all my favorite Chinese recipes are really bad for you (or expensive).  They did have Thai food… I got some curry w/Chicken that everything I have searched on is apparently not too bad for me.  I was more impressed with what I did when it arrived.  I immediately took out a tupperware bowl and put 1/2 of the dinner away.  I wanted more, but I did one for now, one for later, one for now, one for later… *BOOM*  Got lunch today.

I felt weakness around lunch.  The kids didn’t finish their doritos – but I asked Sarah to get rid of the left overs.  I haven’t eaten anybodies left overs in 3 days.  I’m kind of proud of that.

One day at a time, one decision at a time – I hope to conquer this addiction.

Morning after

Ouch.  That’s about all I can say.  I started back about where I left off… which isn’t wise.  I got on the treadmill and wanted to run for 2 miles, but that seemed wimpy, so I ran for 3.  Awesome… (or something).  Then – I did my Steve Hill approved weight lifting which included squats, deadlifts, bench press and pull ups.  Today I am sore, but not injured, which simply means I need to keep it up.  In order to meet a running goal, I have a lot of running to do in the next month.  I can’t really afford too many days off but I think I will “run and gun”.  That is … run short, run long, run short, run long… by that standard – today should be shorter, tomorrow should be longer.  We will see.

I’m putting my faith in God on this one.  I am powerless over this – and he is not.  I can’t do it.  I proved that AGAIN…. My lowest weight was 212.  I’m at 226.8 this morning.  Not a huge gain – so I am grateful for that, but not good.  Let me see if I can plow some of this off before Christmas.  I did very well on my food yesterday … here is a link to my food diary.  Comments are welcome:

11/26 Food Diary

Shady’s back… Let me take this step!

So, workout 2012 has begun. I know … I know… I have done this before. I have failed yet again. Weight gain is back… Probably not all of it, but it happened again. I have my reasons, but most of them are just excuses. The simple fact is that I am powerless over my eating and my life is unmanageable. (those familiar with 12 step programs will realize I just did a very public, very open 1st step. My last 1st step resulted in 24 years of sobriety…. One day at a time. Let’s see where this one gets me….)